there were alot of things going through my head when i was in the bus just now
like how i should refrain myself from saying yes...opening up to others or think about
others all the time because the chances of them tinking of you is next to nothing
as selfish as that may sound like...its actually true and it does make sense..for me that is
i mean telling your secrets to a person...sharing your feelings your thoughts whatever not
wouldn't it just make you exposed to you flaws and the thought of them using it against you
is just to painful...you put that amount of trust to that person and watch them betray you like that...isn't it just better to not tell them in the first place...i don't want to be vulnerable and weak
that's why i keep a diary up till now...lol old school i know..but still writing on one gives me such peace after venting it all out..clears my thoughts and what not...lets me see the situation in a clearer view...and after expressing all that i won't have the fear of being judged by someone as it is all being hidden in there
when i look back at my sec sch diary i feel so far from where ive been
i mean back then i was so insecure so unsure of myself
every action that i make is scrutinised by people so that they can laugh and make fun
and all the mistakes that i did...regretted them...learnt from them...moved on
my eyes are gettin heavyy..lol
ill continue tom..
