first i'll suggest somthing to people who think they will lose their mind at any moment
SCREEEEEAAAAMMMMM
till your lungs give out
that's what i did when nobody was around
i ran and just yell out my frustration,my misery,my guilt,my EVERYTHING
and for awhile i felt good...real good
anyhoo i went to the journalism talk on monday at raffles city
and it was basically about why you should be a journalist and also talking more about
the SPH SCHOLARSHIP
just the thought of it give me chills
this means i can get my degree in any part of the world
and come back to get a job at SPH
nothing..NOTHING is better than this
then after the talk my inscurities creeped up to me like vines
when i signed up, i saw the list full of students from ivy league schools
VJC...NJC all that shit
and me
im in RP
am i worth to get that scholarship...to pursue my dream as a journalist
and especially to study exactly that and get my degree
am i good enough? can i cut it?
questions question questions with answers camouflaged
but i saw one of my seniors who is in the same course as me in the bus
she talked to me about getting the experience because that is what set me apart from all those
students in JC
she is my hero at the moment
not only did she have over 90 CE points
she went to different countries with the school every year
she interned for CHANNEL NEW ASIA [ LYK WOAHHHHH]
she will be interning for a production in suria
talking to her really made me feel more determined
i am appreaciat her for talking to me and put things into perspective
i feel a dim light replaced by a fire inside of me
i want to prove to MYSELF
that i am worthy
then i can make people trust me & believe that i am capale of doing things that love love so much
i have 2 years to accomplish as much as i can
my GPA
to work on my portfolio
to have that solid internships
my job experience
the overseas learning trips
the impressive CE points
to give back to the community
basically everything and anything to prove to them i deserve that scholarship
a place in university
SCREEEAAMMMMM
i can do whatever i set my mind to
i can do it (:
