thay say family first
but what happens if you see your family bocken before you
everything wasn't the way it used to be...when it was all so easy
adik kak sha and i playing at the playground
mummy cooking and everyone coming over to eat
nenek with her constant nagging but she loves us still
as i am in my room i feel silence
nenek isn't around..even if she is she will be in the kitchen with mummy
complaining..telling all her worries about what is about to happen
a seperation
and i am left to listen..not allowed to say anything as that will considered "rude"
besides i don't want to say anything anyway
i imagine what it would be like with them not around in my life
no more dinners at kfc
no more laughter...just silence
they say there is a reason for everything
well, can someone tell me the reason for this now
because i am not seeing things clearly
who would i seek solace if kak shasha wasn't around
i remember nights when i am on the floor cring my heart out
and mummy wil be so worried and she will call kak shasha to talk
to me bacsue she knows i won't allow he r to do it
who is going to tell me that everything is ok
when obviosly it isn't
i feel so lost right now
i feel so far from whare i have been
sa many people i want to seek forgiveness to
but i know they wouldn'nt listen
hopeless
tired
i wish everything is back to the way it was
so happy...so easy
well i'm at the last book called hanging dawn
and this part of the book strike me the most
"i could have been.
i would have been good there.
but that was just a distant future
that died long before
it had a chance to live"
